Clouded Minds

Wow! So much is happening! So much break through is going on! We're three days in now...And we haven't even started school yet!

Sitting in the prayer room today, consecrating myself to what God has for me in these next few years, i felt Him lift the veil from my eyes and help me to see the war over my spirit that has been going on. Off and on my whole life i've gone in and out of the place of being totally confused with who i am, where i belong and how He feels about me. The devil is in a nasty battle with Christ for my heart, and this summer, he was winning.

I'm sad to say that i let myself believe the lies that the world was telling me. I fought for awhile with Christ's strength against to onslaught of the devil, but there came to a point that i was so overwhelmed by four different situations in my life, that all came at me at the same time, that i switched from God's strength to my own. And that was when my mind started to fall into confusion, and i started to believe the whispers of the evil one.

These past few months i feel that i have been beat on, in just about every way you can imagine. My hurt ran so deep that I literally pushed everyone away from me in order to keep myself from being hurt more. And the saddest part is, i wasn't relying on God to be my strength. I wasn't going to Him with my hurt, and i wasn't listening to what He had to say about me or what was going on in my life. I was so bogged down with believing the lies that Satan was telling me, that i fell back into my old self. I lost sight of who i am, i missed a whole summer of opportunities to be me, and that deeply grieves my heart.

As i sat in the GPR (global prayer room), i felt God speaking softly to me, breaking the lies that i had bought into. And as i started to rebuke the confusion of my mind, Misty Edwards (who was leading the set) started singing this song;

"The devil is a liar and i won't buy it! Cause i'm in Love with God and God's in Love with me, this is who i am and this is who i'll be and that settle's it. Completely."

I sang along and began rebuking the devil's hold on my mind and the confusion started to lift. Suddenly i felt like God had thrown me a life line! Thank you Lord for saving me! Believing in me! And never giving up on me!

It's so easy to buy into the lies that Satan speaks over our lives. Especially when everything the world says is so contrary to what God says about you. We truly live in a time when it is so hard to hear the voice of God because our minds are so clouded with what we hear and see in the world around us. But who wants to be like the world? Who wanted to live an empty life full of sin, just so we can enjoy the pleasures of the world around us?

Not me. Not anymore.

If my name means nothing to the world, all the better because i am everything to Him.

I only have room to please one; What will it be? God, or the world?

I choose God.