Moved at the sound of your voice

"Your attitude is like the aroma of your heart, if your attitude stinks, your heart probably does too." -Facing the Giants

Sometimes, it's hard to stay engaged down here. There are a lot of distractions all around, and especially while sitting at the Awakening services, it can be hard to stay tuned in when they start ministry times and stuff. But last night, during an intense time of prayer for the FMA students, i stood before God, and told Him that i would wait for Him, no matter if the music moved me or other around me were sitting, standing or kneeling. I felt Him re-reminding me that i wasn't there for others, and that while worshiping i stand before His throne, no one else matters in that place.

As i sat tonight, and felt my mind straying from what was going on i decided that i would stay true to my word, and that i would wait on Him. So i sat, closed my eyes, opened my hands, and let my heart encounter the One who is always waiting for me.

I can't say anything astounding happened. But waiting for Him is always worth it. Even though i didn't experience any shaking, or get slain in the Spirit, just waiting on Him is enough for me.

I know that He will meet me there. That no matter how i've failed, He'll still meet me. He doesn't see my imperfections. It's so refreshing to know that He accepts me just the way i am.

The more i wait, the softer i feel my heart becomes before Him.

This summer, about once a week, i would feel the whispering in my Spirit, the start of a song or chorus. In just these past two days alone, i have heard the whispers of over ten songs, and there is a rumbling in my Spirit, a beat to the new song of His heart that has yet to be released.

There is excitement building in my Spirit to see what He has in store for my life!

Last night, during the same time of ministry that i talked about earlier. They prayed and prophesied over us. And one woman specifically spoke that over my life, that i would hear the whisper of His voice, the songs that are on His heart. And also that His new song would come forth.

Standing in the midst of hundreds of other people, God revealed something to my heart; I am a minister before His throne. When i sing, i stand before the King of Kings, and i have the power to move Him with my song.

It thrilled my small heart to hear the what the Lord of the heavens thinks of me.

As i stood in the midst of hundreds of other people, i knew He could see me. He knows me. And He can always hear my voice.

I raised my hands and sang my heart out to my King. Asking Him to come and meet with me.

A picture flashed on the insides of my eyelids, of Jesus, pushing through the crowd to get to me.

I felt Him reaching for me, as i reached for Him.

The sweetness of waiting on God.